The Legacy of Historical Trauma


The Legacy of Historical Trauma

Grasping the Larger Story

By Anita Mandley

September/October 2020


My name is Anita Mathilda Abram Mandley. That’s me peeking out from the lower left-hand corner of the picture. I’m with my great grandfather, great-great aunts, a great aunt, an aunt, my grandmother, and my cousins at my grandmother’s house in New Orleans. This picture was taken about 65 years ago, but I can still remember the feeling of unconditional love and safe connection in that room.

I grew up in a large and loving extended family. My great grandfather and his sisters were part of a sibship of 13, born to parents who were enslaved. Their father, owned by nuns at The Convent of the Sacred Heart in Louisiana, fought in the Civil War in the Corps d’Afrique and the Spanish-American War. Their mother grew up on a plantation in Tensas, Louisiana, the daughter of the plantation master and one of his enslaved women.

I’m a psychotherapist specializing in complex and developmental trauma.

About 12 years ago, I was working with a Jewish woman in her late 40s who’d experienced a lot of invalidation in her life. Her parents and grandparents were hypercritical, especially of her appearance, and her parents’ high-conflict relationship had left her with deep emotional wounds. As she left a session one day, she turned to me and said, “It’s so good to be working with a therapist who’s also a trauma survivor.”

My initial impulse was to tell her, “Oh no, I’m not a survivor. I’ve never personally experienced trauma.” But over the next few days, fragments of vivid images from the past started bubbling up, knitting together to form a movie-like memory that delivered a painful truth.

It starts with me sitting on a low stool, my grandmother in a chair behind me. I see our small black-and-white television. The newscasters Chet Huntley and David Brinkley are reporting the bombing of the 16th Street Baptist Church in Birmingham, Alabama, which killed four little girls. Those girls had gone to Sunday School, just like I did. They were killed in church, and I’d been to church that morning. Three of them were 14 and one was 11. I was 11. My conclusion was that there were people in the world who wanted me dead without even knowing my name. 

I am a survivor—a survivor of cultural and historical trauma.

Since that day, I’ve continued to have memories bubble up, expanding my awareness of what I carry inside. I now understand why and how I can get activated listening to my clients’ stories, but I’ve learned over the years how to acknowledge my biases and regulate my nervous system. So I’m less likely to merge with those from disadvantaged backgrounds or histories of cultural oppression, or to disengage from clients who have a lot of privilege and socioeconomic power.

There’s a principle in Buddhism about changing karma into mission. My karma is to carry the history and DNA of slaves and Native Americans, people and tribes who’ve experienced unspeakable oppression, trauma, and disenfranchisement. To understand my mission, I studied social work researcher Joy DeGruy’s theory of posttraumatic slavery syndrome, which is grounded in the multigenerational oppression and trauma of Africans and their descendants in this country. Then I broadened my focus to the histories of Holocaust survivors and their descendants, as well as the plight of Japanese Americans interned during WWII. I read about the epigenetics of trauma and how it’s inherited. Once I became curious about how historical trauma impacts my clients, I realized how much of their stories I’d been missing.

It’s not a matter of dredging up a painful past, but of normalizing our interconnectedness and the emotions and behaviors that come out of it.

I’d been seeing one client, Allison, for six years when I began reading about the changes in DNA and RNA that can result from chronic traumatic stress. She’d had a successful career in sales but struggled with self-injury, cocaine and alcohol dependence, autoimmune diseases, and depression. Her younger brother was born with diabetes and had struggled with substance abuse before his death. Her parents were emotionally and physically abusive Austrian immigrants and alcoholics. Her mother and her mother’s family were captured by Nazis but escaped to Turkey. Her father was captured by the Russians and held in a labor camp. Neither parent was ever treated for trauma.

When I told Allison what I’d learned about the intergenerational transmission of trauma, her eyes filled with tears. “You mean this isn’t all my fault?” she asked.

Her previous therapists had only focused on her negative cognitions and unhealthy behaviors. Now, she was being presented with the possibility that her distress and actions weren’t a character flaw. Given this new paradigm, she soon let go of some of her problematic behaviors, took better care of herself, and started seeking out activities that were meaningful to her. Her shift was a stunning example of the power of providing an expanded context for what our clients and their families are carrying.

I’ve since learned the benefits of directly asking clients about their family and historical traumas. Take my client, Sara, who returned to therapy after she’d began to physically assault her boyfriend in a dissociative rage whenever she’d worry that he was being unfaithful. Because she noted intense activation in her abdomen before each episode, we started with somatic therapies. But one day it dawned on me that I’d never asked Sara, who was Jewish, if any of her relatives had been through the Holocaust. When I did, she said no, her family had been in the U.S. long before the war. But then she got a faraway look in her eye and told me how her family’s synagogue had often invited Holocaust survivors to speak about their experiences in the war.

One story she heard when she was very young involved a horrendous form of torture to a woman’s abdominal and pelvic cavities. Because she’d absorbed this and other horrors of the camps at such an early age, her brain and nervous system had been formed around these vicarious traumas, and her aggression was likely an attempt to manage feelings of powerlessness in the face of threat. Integrating this new awareness helped her shift from a place of negative self-judgment to one of openness, where she could more readily learn skills for self-regulation and see that threats from the past weren’t happening in the present.

I not only have an expanded vision of trauma these days, but an increased sense of mission to help other therapists see the larger context of what we carry inside. It’s not a matter of dredging up a painful past, but of normalizing our interconnectedness and the emotions and behaviors that come out of it. No matter how far removed we may feel from our ancestors, this kind of awareness makes other interventions far more effective. It’s work in the here-and-now that also honors the history that’s shaped us, resiliency and all.

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Anita Mandley, MS, LCPC, practices at The Center for Contextual Change, where she focuses on clients who’ve experienced trauma. She’s the creator of Integrative Trauma Recovery, a group therapy process for adults with complex PTSD.

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Tuesday, December 8, 2020 3:10:34 PM | posted by SHEELAH CLARKE
Thank you for sharing your story and about your work with transgenerational trauma. I am interested in learning more about how to integrate this more into my work with clients, and will follow up with some of the names listed in this article. Thank you.

Sunday, September 6, 2020 10:43:32 AM | posted by Stephen Terrell
Anita, I have heard parts of this story before and I remember seeing the photograph when you were sharing the story with me. I am so honored to know you and now even more of your story. You are now and have always been a beacon in my life. I too remember when the four little girls were killed and couldn't make sense of it as a white male child, I can only imagine how that newsreel affected you. I so appreciate your strength.

Wednesday, September 2, 2020 7:39:34 AM | posted by Cathy Conway
Thank you Anita for sharing you and your families past historical background. What important work you are doing! Thank you for shedding light on the importance of the knowledge of transmission of trauma through our DNA lines, and even giving practical tools on how to bring about regulation into the person's present! Excellent article! Thank you!